valentines day is the work of the devil..

- checkerz

so i went to prep today and wasted my fucking time. i was planning to talk to jesse but the stupid chicken was avoiding me. immature, isn`t it?

i`m so fucking pissed that the things he has said has completely RUiNED my image. 'that' is NOT what i stand for.. and now, thanks to you jesse.. i have this horrible label following me.. and YOU out of all people should know that i don`t take that shit well.

i juss wanna be liked for who i really am..

*OK .. so you would like to talk shit about me. go the fuck ahead.. say all you want. your comments dont affect me..  but theres no need to tell OTHER PEOPLE bullshit about me juss to lead them in the other direction..

as if i haven`t had to deal with 4 years of your pathetic bullshit. i thought this could all be OVER. i wouldnt have to see you or hear you and you and your excess baggages of hell would be NONEXISTANT. but here you are back to haunt my life. it`s like i`m reliving grammar school. i thought that only ostracizing left would be done by marcos and edwin and munkz..

who woulda fuckin knew that YOU would be one to contribute the vicious cycle of rumors? is this some kind of evil revenge for me being a heartless bitch a few years ago? sick joke ASSHOLE.. your ruining my life.

and good for you if you`re climbing the ladder of social acceptance.. juss keep in mind that for every one step you take UP.. i take two steps down. and i knoe that buried somewhere deep inside of you is something called CONSIDERATION.

die die die, fuckin DIE.

++get up kids · long goodnight

new layout. breakin away from blue cuz it reminds me of you.. and the last thing i need right now is to be reminded of how you DROPPED ME. i read over previous shit and i realize its pointless to dwell in the past, it won`t make things better. crying over you doesnt solve anything

so FUCK you.. i don`t need this to drag me down. i admit that i made you the center of my world and i still think about you sometimes. i close my eyes and i feel you.. its like your heartbeat haunts me. i close my eyes and tuck my head under the covers, only to see your face. i`ll wake up in the middle of the night pressing my fist against the pillow, wishing it was your face..

GOOD FOR YOU that you cry your heart out over not being able to move on. i hope you fucking drown in your own tears and spend your insomniac nights alone..

++juliana theory · into the dark

one. i spent all this time grieving over a lost relationship and thinking i could still run back to you. and i thought you wanted it back too.. yet i find out that you`re over me. and you`re avoiding me hoping that i`ll get over you. `=\ ouch. FUCK YOU.

two. you lead me on and dropped me. fuck fuck shit fuck, what a fucking surprise.. you`re juss like the rest of them. i thought you were the different one, but nope.. you`re juss a typical guy. ignorant and close minded because you can`t see past the fact i`m jailbait. FUCK YOU TOO.

in a corner realizing that this is what my life has been reduced to » LONELY, with an empty pack of stoges, a natural hate for love and a psychological trust issue.